Listening to Daft Punk trying to recuperate after my sisters death. Trying so hard to see the light again. All I can feel is the cold numbness. It's so hard to fake a smile and go on with my day. I can't stop thinking about her. I'll hear a song or phrase and instantly my mind goes to her. Being so far from my family and the few people who know instantly that I'm not alright, even though I smile and say it's all okay. I was sitting at her funeral and all I could this was this has to be a bad dream, I'm gonna wake up any moment. I wrote her name today, followed by her birthday and the day she died. That's when it hit me, this was never a dream